I opened my inbox and inhaled with the sharpness of surprise.
‘I can’t believe I got a response so quickly; they must be really keen.’ I thought.
In all the months I had been writing, planning, pitching, proposing and hustling, it hadn’t crossed my mind that a college or university wouldn’t want to host my Student Saviour Sessions, save for a millisecond before I hit open. Her reply was quick, brief and decisive…
‘We will not be taking your offer further…’
A big fat no.
It took me a moment to assimilate this foreign happening into my reality. Do you think I cried? Can you see me now, dropping my head into my hands and reaching for the wine? Did I get mad, curse my rejector and throw my laptop through a window?
The most challenging aspect of this rejection was figuring out why I didn’t feel rejected at all. You know the feeling…
That hot, embarrassed, sweaty, anxious, frustrated, ashamed, doubtful, racing, confusion. It never appeared.
I sat for a moment, just feeling my feelings. I felt fine. Then another feeling whispered through my bloodstream…it was gratitude. Yep, definitely gratitude. That sweet, peaceful, reverent, appreciative knowingness.
I was grateful for being rejected. It taught me that I have an unwavering belief in my ability to facilitate love – the sort of belief that only arrives when I know something to be true. No doubt. I felt encouraged by the rejection, and grateful that a busy director of a company had taken the time to respond to my idea. I felt elated at having shared my precious idea with a stranger – I verbalised it, typed it out, brought it to life, and sent it out into the world. It made it real; I had a witness.
I felt gratitude for rejection as a tool for navigation. ‘No’ is not the enemy, ‘no’ is a signpost that guides you back on the path of ‘yes’. Rejection is the shutter coming down on a window of opportunity that was never right for you anyway.
Rejection is resistance training for your soul. It is the force that allows you to grow stronger in your ambition by offering to pull you off course. Rejection is the Universe letting you know that you are still being guided, that you have purpose, that your journey meanders down a deliberate path.
‘No’ may come from within or without, and when it arrives, take note and appreciate that some experiences are not rich enough, not deep enough, not beneficial enough, not loving enough and be thankful that you are guided beyond such.
…These thoughts came when I meditated on rejection. When I opened my eyes, I saw (1) in my inbox. It was a ‘yes’.